My name is Teri Stearns. I live in Col­orado. I have two cats, a hus­band, a full-time job at [UNDISCLOSED], a Hyundai hatch­back, an ASUS ROG lap­top, and Playsta­tions 2 — 4. I love dinosaurs, and video games, and pirates, and space­ships, and toys, and ice cream, and I'm 47 years old.


I hate annoying websites.

This is why you'll nev­er find any annoy­ing embed­ded audio and video here, pop-up reminders to sub­scribe to my newslet­ter, or asks to donate mon­ey. You'll nev­er see an ad here, so I don't care if you use an ad-block­er, and I won't make you feel bad for keep­ing yours turned on.

I pay for my own domain because I'm a grown-up and I have a job. I don't turn on track­backs or ping­backs either because I don't even know what those are, so don't ask me. I'm real­ly not try­ing to mar­ket any­thing here, I'm just hav­ing fun. Don't annoy me, because I'm try­ing my best not to annoy you.

You also won't get any pop up reminders about cook­ies. Word­Press might col­lect cook­ies, but I per­son­al­ly wouldn't know what to do with a cook­ie if I had one. An inter­net cook­ie, any­way. I know what to do with a real cook­ie. And I'm not sharing!


What's the deal with Fallout 4?

Fall­out is a series of post-apoc­a­lyp­tic role-play­ing video games cre­at­ed by Bethes­da Game Stu­dios avail­able for var­i­ous gam­ing plat­forms such as–

Oh. That's not what you meant. (Or if you did, you can just read about it here. That's easier.)

I got into Fall­out 4 right after the death of by best friend and cre­ative col­lab­o­ra­tor of 37 years. Pri­or to her death, I'd already been in a cre­ative hole for over three years, and the grief and depres­sion that fol­lowed her death did not help. Unable to do any­thing else men­tal­ly inter­est­ing, I turned to one of my favorite past times, play­ing video games, as escapism.

And after hours and hours of shoot­ing radroach­es, build­ing and sav­ing set­tle­ments, and cruis­ing in the slow lane along with the sto­ry, I final­ly got to the part where I was forced to make some in-game choic­es. Hard ones. Like who lives and who dies, and what dic­tates how I define fam­i­ly and friend­ship, and what does it mean to be human, and how do you live with the choic­es you make, and how do you move on after los­ing some­one you love. To me, Fall­out 4 wasn't a game. It was ther­a­py. That's when I woke up and the char­ac­ters start­ed speak­ing to me off the screen and in my head.

I start­ed writ­ing lit­tle "off-cam­era" dia­logue scenes between my Sole Sur­vivor and my com­pan­ions. Things I des­per­ate­ly want­ed to say in-game but thanks to the lim­i­ta­tions of the medi­um, obvi­ous­ly couldn't. But there were also the aes­thet­ics, too. I start­ed tak­ing screen­shots, crap­py ones at first, then bet­ter and bet­ter ones. And then I start­ed look­ing at all the stuff I began to col­lect from this game and decid­ed to Do Some­thing With It. One thing led to anoth­er, and now I've learned a lot about 3D ani­mat­ing, pho­to-manip­u­la­tion, com­ic book author­ing, illus­trat­ing, and how video games are made all while still get­ting to play this awe­some game! Real­ly, it's one of the most cre­ative­ly ful­fill­ing projects I've ever done 'cause I get to do a lit­tle of everything.


What do you think of Fallout 76?

No. Go away and nev­er speak of this to me again.


Yeah, but, they worked really hard



Is this site safe for my kids?

Heh, I'm not sure this site is safe for me, but it's here, ain't it? I'm an adult, and I write for an adult audi­ence. There's lots of swear­ing and mature sit­u­a­tions like abuse, and sex, and vio­lence, and big­otry, and injus­tice, and war, and death, and grief.

But I also write about romance, and humor, and friend­ship, and democ­ra­cy, and equal­i­ty, all sorts of dif­fer­ent rela­tion­ships, and phi­los­o­phy, and reli­gion, and sci­ence, and pop-cul­ture, a lot of oth­er stuff because that's the kind of stuff peo­ple talk about in real life.

So, I dun­no... I guess it all depends on you and your kid. I sup­pose if you let them play Fall­out 4 and you're okay with them being exposed to the themes and sit­u­a­tions in the game, then I don't sup­pose this is ter­ri­bly dif­fer­ent. But if you let your kid play Fall­out 4 and aren't aware of the themes in the game, and hold sites like mine respon­si­ble for expos­ing your kids to ques­tion­able con­tent, maybe you should pay more atten­tion to what your kids watch. Just sayin'.


Yeah, but is there porn?

Oh, Jesus, real­ly? Look, I only did that once and I was very young and I real­ly need­ed the money.

I'm kid­ding!

No, there's no porn, here. The Fall­out 4 com­mu­ni­ty is a vast and var­ied bunch, and there's way, way, way, way, way, way, way, way, way, way, way worse stuff out there than mine. As a female gamer, I detest some of the degrad­ing and taste­less mods avail­able for this game. I have a fair­ly medi­um-high tol­er­ance for that kind of bull­shit, and it almost drove me away from it completely.

But I didn't leave because I am a female gamer, and I think we need bet­ter rep­re­sen­ta­tion in the indus­try, and some­times that starts with hob­by­ists like myself. I've even con­tributed some con­tent, and I plan on adding more. It's not my focus, but I do like doing it. I'm still learn­ing as I go, though, so it's slow to come. Any­way, I digress...

Some of the sit­u­a­tions I write about might get a lit­tle saucy between char­ac­ters, because, again, that's what peo­ple do. Some­times there might be a lit­tle implied nudi­ty in the images, because we aren't born with clothes graft­ed to our skin and we do take them off once in a while, no mat­ter how com­fort­able that skin-tight jump­suit might be. But that's not what this is about. If you're here for that, you're gonna wait a loooooong, long time. The lit­tle ya get prob­a­bly ain't gonna be all that worth it.


Why don't you write anything original?

Well, I do con­sid­er this pret­ty orig­i­nal. But if you mean why is it all fanfiction/fanart/derivative, it's because this is my hob­by. I enjoy doing it. It helps me unplug from dai­ly life and unwind. I'd like to keep it that way. If I was forc­ing myself to come up with orig­i­nal char­ac­ters, plots, art, etc., I'd feel the need to mon­e­tize it, or at the very least, defend why I'm not mon­e­tiz­ing off it. Then it would feel like a job, and I already have one of those. I appre­ci­ate your encour­age­ment, but I real­ly am hap­py doing this.


Can I make a donation?

Sure! I'd sin­cere­ly appre­ci­ate it if you did! Here are a list of orga­ni­za­tions I feel strong­ly about and would very much love if you donat­ed to them:

  • ACLU
  • Doc­tors With­out Borders
  • Nation­al Vet­er­ans Association
  • Nature Con­ser­van­cy
  • Mor­ri­son Nat­ur­al His­to­ry Museum


Can I make a donation directly to you?

I sin­cere­ly appre­ci­ate the ges­ture, but I don't take dona­tions. I'm doing fine, and there are far bet­ter caus­es to give your mon­ey to than me. See above.


Why don't you allow comments?

I'm glad you're here, and I'm glad you like it. I'm kin­da even glad if you don't like it, because then at least I know I've struck a nerve, heh heh. I don't turn com­ments on my posts though, not because I'm a frag­ile snowflake, but because it's not worth it to weed through the annoy­ing spam com­ments for the one or two legit ones I might get a cou­ple times a year.

If you do want to reach me for any rea­son, though, if you have some feed­back on the con­tent, or you want to dis­cuss art or writ­ing tech­niques, or you've got any oth­er kind of ques­tion or com­ment, I've made this handy-dandy form. Just fill it out and it'll shoot me an email.


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