My name is Teri Stearns. I live in Col­orado. I have two cats, a hus­band, a full-time job at [UNDISCLOSED], a Hyundai hatch­back, an ASUS ROG lap­top, and Playsta­tions 2 — 4. I love dinosaurs, and video games, and pirates, and space­ships, and toys, and ice cream, and I'm 47 years old.

 

I hate annoying websites.

This is why you'll nev­er find any annoy­ing embed­ded audio and video here, pop-up reminders to sub­scribe to my newslet­ter, or asks to donate mon­ey. You'll nev­er see an ad here, so I don't care if you use an ad-block­er, and I won't make you feel bad for keep­ing yours turned on.

I pay for my own domain because I'm a grown-up and I have a job. I don't turn on track­backs or ping­backs either because I don't even know what those are, so don't ask me. I'm real­ly not try­ing to mar­ket any­thing here, I'm just hav­ing fun. Don't annoy me, because I'm try­ing my best not to annoy you.

You also won't get any pop up reminders about cook­ies. Word­Press might col­lect cook­ies, but I per­son­al­ly wouldn't know what to do with a cook­ie if I had one. An inter­net cook­ie, any­way. I know what to do with a real cook­ie. And I'm not sharing!

 

What's the deal with Fallout 4?

Fall­out is a series of post-apoc­a­lyp­tic role-play­ing video games cre­at­ed by Bethes­da Game Stu­dios avail­able for var­i­ous gam­ing plat­forms such as–

Oh. That's not what you meant. (Or if you did, you can just read about it here. That's easier.)

I got into Fall­out 4 right after the death of by best friend and cre­ative col­lab­o­ra­tor of 37 years. Pri­or to her death, I'd already been in a cre­ative hole for over three years, and the grief and depres­sion that fol­lowed her death did not help. Unable to do any­thing else men­tal­ly inter­est­ing, I turned to one of my favorite past times, play­ing video games, as escapism.

And after hours and hours of shoot­ing radroach­es, build­ing and sav­ing set­tle­ments, and cruis­ing in the slow lane along with the sto­ry, I final­ly got to the part where I was forced to make some in-game choic­es. Hard ones. Like who lives and who dies, and what dic­tates how I define fam­i­ly and friend­ship, and what does it mean to be human, and how do you live with the choic­es you make, and how do you move on after los­ing some­one you love. To me, Fall­out 4 wasn't a game. It was ther­a­py. That's when I woke up and the char­ac­ters start­ed speak­ing to me off the screen and in my head.

I start­ed writ­ing lit­tle "off-cam­era" dia­logue scenes between my Sole Sur­vivor and my com­pan­ions. Things I des­per­ate­ly want­ed to say in-game but thanks to the lim­i­ta­tions of the medi­um, obvi­ous­ly couldn't. But there were also the aes­thet­ics, too. I start­ed tak­ing screen­shots, crap­py ones at first, then bet­ter and bet­ter ones. And then I start­ed look­ing at all the stuff I began to col­lect from this game and decid­ed to Do Some­thing With It. One thing led to anoth­er, and now I've learned a lot about 3D ani­mat­ing, pho­to-manip­u­la­tion, com­ic book author­ing, illus­trat­ing, and how video games are made all while still get­ting to play this awe­some game! Real­ly, it's one of the most cre­ative­ly ful­fill­ing projects I've ever done 'cause I get to do a lit­tle of everything.

 

What do you think of Fallout 76?

No. Go away and nev­er speak of this to me again.

 

Yeah, but, they worked really hard

I said NOOOOOOOOOOO.

 

Is this site safe for my kids?

Heh, I'm not sure this site is safe for me, but it's here, ain't it? I'm an adult, and I write for an adult audi­ence. There's lots of swear­ing and mature sit­u­a­tions like abuse, and sex, and vio­lence, and big­otry, and injus­tice, and war, and death, and grief.

But I also write about romance, and humor, and friend­ship, and democ­ra­cy, and equal­i­ty, all sorts of dif­fer­ent rela­tion­ships, and phi­los­o­phy, and reli­gion, and sci­ence, and pop-cul­ture, a lot of oth­er stuff because that's the kind of stuff peo­ple talk about in real life.

So, I dun­no... I guess it all depends on you and your kid. I sup­pose if you let them play Fall­out 4 and you're okay with them being exposed to the themes and sit­u­a­tions in the game, then I don't sup­pose this is ter­ri­bly dif­fer­ent. But if you let your kid play Fall­out 4 and aren't aware of the themes in the game, and hold sites like mine respon­si­ble for expos­ing your kids to ques­tion­able con­tent, maybe you should pay more atten­tion to what your kids watch. Just sayin'.

 

Yeah, but is there porn?

Oh, Jesus, real­ly? Look, I only did that once and I was very young and I real­ly need­ed the money.

I'm kid­ding!

No, there's no porn, here. The Fall­out 4 com­mu­ni­ty is a vast and var­ied bunch, and there's way, way, way, way, way, way, way, way, way, way, way worse stuff out there than mine. As a female gamer, I detest some of the degrad­ing and taste­less mods avail­able for this game. I have a fair­ly medi­um-high tol­er­ance for that kind of bull­shit, and it almost drove me away from it completely.

But I didn't leave because I am a female gamer, and I think we need bet­ter rep­re­sen­ta­tion in the indus­try, and some­times that starts with hob­by­ists like myself. I've even con­tributed some con­tent, and I plan on adding more. It's not my focus, but I do like doing it. I'm still learn­ing as I go, though, so it's slow to come. Any­way, I digress...

Some of the sit­u­a­tions I write about might get a lit­tle saucy between char­ac­ters, because, again, that's what peo­ple do. Some­times there might be a lit­tle implied nudi­ty in the images, because we aren't born with clothes graft­ed to our skin and we do take them off once in a while, no mat­ter how com­fort­able that skin-tight jump­suit might be. But that's not what this is about. If you're here for that, you're gonna wait a loooooong, long time. The lit­tle ya get prob­a­bly ain't gonna be all that worth it.

 

Why don't you write anything original?

Well, I do con­sid­er this pret­ty orig­i­nal. But if you mean why is it all fanfiction/fanart/derivative, it's because this is my hob­by. I enjoy doing it. It helps me unplug from dai­ly life and unwind. I'd like to keep it that way. If I was forc­ing myself to come up with orig­i­nal char­ac­ters, plots, art, etc., I'd feel the need to mon­e­tize it, or at the very least, defend why I'm not mon­e­tiz­ing off it. Then it would feel like a job, and I already have one of those. I appre­ci­ate your encour­age­ment, but I real­ly am hap­py doing this.

 

Can I make a donation?

Sure! I'd sin­cere­ly appre­ci­ate it if you did! Here are a list of orga­ni­za­tions I feel strong­ly about and would very much love if you donat­ed to them:

  • ACLU
  • Doc­tors With­out Borders
  • Nation­al Vet­er­ans Association
  • Nature Con­ser­van­cy
  • Mor­ri­son Nat­ur­al His­to­ry Museum

 

Can I make a donation directly to you?

I sin­cere­ly appre­ci­ate the ges­ture, but I don't take dona­tions. I'm doing fine, and there are far bet­ter caus­es to give your mon­ey to than me. See above.

 

Why don't you allow comments?

I'm glad you're here, and I'm glad you like it. I'm kin­da even glad if you don't like it, because then at least I know I've struck a nerve, heh heh. I don't turn com­ments on my posts though, not because I'm a frag­ile snowflake, but because it's not worth it to weed through the annoy­ing spam com­ments for the one or two legit ones I might get a cou­ple times a year.

If you do want to reach me for any rea­son, though, if you have some feed­back on the con­tent, or you want to dis­cuss art or writ­ing tech­niques, or you've got any oth­er kind of ques­tion or com­ment, I've made this handy-dandy form. Just fill it out and it'll shoot me an email.

 

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